This week he gets Gabe for one 9 hour day and three 4 hour visits....
Today is the first 9 hour day.
I was expecting better from him... Let me explain. When he came, he was not only 20 minutes late but, he was also interested in talking about misc crap. I asked him what they would do and he said that he didn't know. That he wanted to do stuff with Gabe but that it was up to his parents because everyone (Including his 12 year old sister) had the day off. That is where I kind of expected better....
He also infuriates me, when he has the baby I can send him an e-mail and he will reply within 20 minutes and if I send him another one I'll get another reply within another 20 minutes.Why the hell is he on his computer when he has my son? Then I remember that his parent's are the ones that really want him over and stuff, so I remind myself that he doesn't give a shit. If he is going to spend all of his bloody time on the f***ing computer then why does he take him. Here I play with him all day. Granted I also use my computer and sometimes I even chat with friends, but still. He lives with me full time, he doesn't come over for visits. GOSH! I'm so pissed!!
I'm dreading what's going to happen after 3 weeks. That's the first time he will have him overnight. I keep wishing that he will realize how hard it is to acutally be a parent and leave us alone. But since he makes sure that his parents are there I'm not going to have much luck, he is almost 20 and his parents still do everything for him because he is his moms 'baby', not to mention her only actual child. His sister is adopted, she bitches at her mircylessly (sp?) and she even tells her that she is going to end up being a slut just like her mother, what a charming broad huh? LOL!
OMG! I don't even want to beging to think what she will tell my son. Cheese and crackers! This is going to end up badly.... I mean even more so that it is now. It feels like we are at the top of a hill and we are folling down and the whole fucking trip will take 18 years in which my son will have times where he hates me and wants to live with his dad because there he doesn't have to be a responsible person... I mean, all you have to do is make sure to clean the living room and dining room so that the bitch doesn't gripe at you, but besides that she doesn't care about homework, all you have to do is tell her it's done and go to school. Although my ex never had any homework, he was in like a special ED or something where the stuff they gave him was so easy and fast to do he could do it at school. Don't pity him please! He is smarter than he plays to be, in school he just played the special kid because he could get away with it. Actually he does that at home too, no one corrects him at all. He is like a disrespectful, morronic, ungrateful 6-12 year old in the body of a 20 year old.
He loves to put on this facade to make himself look awesome and he will tell you the great man he wants to become, but it's all just words, none of it is true....
Sorry, I've been holding some of this in for over a year....
Thank you for reading!
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